Tuesday, August 30, 2005
yup. indeed mj has given us 2
whole days of holiday! but hey, that's not a truthful reflection of how the mj environment is like.
the 2 days break's for studyin. not slacking.
had a bad day at school. classmates were down and out. the mood was like crap.partly cos cherlyn wasn't herself today.
she fell sick. poor girl. and wanqi. another headache. really wish i could step in to help u solve ur problem.
however, some stuff have to be left to ourselves to handle. this is one such example i guess. only u can make a difference.
if i were to help, things might worsen. i think u'll get what i mean.
but hey, i'll be here for u yea. steph too. =D
hees. anyways, mj had our teachers' day celebrations today.
iwasquitedisappointedwiththeclass.
coswedidn'tmanagetotakeadecentpicture.
andourbadhabitshavebecomeevenmoreprominant.
s205.aclassthatseemsbonded
onthesurface.
webragaboutourclassspiritbutweactuallyhavenothintooffer.
wemeanlittletoeachother.
itdoesn'tmattertomeeveniftheclassdidnotexist.
s205isnotsomethinmylifeisbuilton.
norisitsomethinineedtorelyontodurintimesofneed.
thesadtruthisthat.
*deepinside.
we'rejustplainindividualbeingseverysingleoneofus.
perhapssomeofushaveothercommitments.
noclassoutings.everyonegoestheirseperateways.
*ilongforaclassthatisunited.iwannafeelasenseofbelonging.ofwarmth.
that'sjustMYopinion.umightfeelotherwise.that'sfine.cos
remember,
u'renotme.
i enjoyed the performances more than anythin else. shan't comment on the first performance. only that pweetiee boy was in it. (:
met his class at tm later on.
the dance was great, council did a good job on their skit & dance, the keyboard player was astoundin and somewhat emotional.
the female vocalists had powerful voices. kinda inspired me to become a singer. =x
after that went out with fung and steph. met many many many people. especially old friends.(the whole place had plenty of tpjcians.) like yuujin, juliana, jeff, longhui *miss squashin with them. hehe. ^^
and the list goes on. after which socks came to join us but left shortly.
went to buy some teachers' day stuff with fung. den i came home. (:
PS. sorry if this entry sounded too whiny. seems like i've been complainin alot. that was how i truly felt today.
theresnowayicanpleaseeveryone.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:53 PM
7:53 PM
Friday, August 26, 2005
sorry for not blogging recently.
so busy sia. got this and that to do. the work load that is piling on us, crazy.
every night of the week, i was so tired the moment i plopped on the bed, i was able to sleep like a log.
luckily, i managed to wake up in the middle of the night yesterday to complete some of my tutorials.
if not, i would have been a goner today.
today i played 4 matches and won all. hopefully, we'll all continue improvin for the competition next year!
after which atiqah and wanqi came to my place for a squash marathon.
hahaha. so fun. we taught wanqi the basics of squash and hope that she would enjoy the sport too.
(:anyways, my tutorials are callin for me. cyaa.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:43 PM
11:43 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
sorry for not updatin for such a long time. *under
my defination of the word long.
as u all know, i've just survived an ordeal, a series of tests. math chinese and chem. oh i'm so screwed for chem. (i'm gonna digress a little. have u ever had this feelin. it's like when u lose ur momentum to study, u'll ultimately lose all ur will to 'fight'. take this chem test for example, after i came back home i decided to watch
a little television. to relax. okay. so it backfired. i wanted to wake up to study at 5.30am. however since i hadn't started on any revision yet, meanin that the chem notes were still neatly tucked in my bag, i thought hais. all is lost. so i gave up studyin even before i began. though i'm still hopin that i'll get a decent pass. screw reaction kinetics! catch no ball.) anyways, there's more to come. GP on thursday and bio SPA on friday! zz.
hahas. i had bad cramps today!!! boooo.~ so bad that i've decided to slim down. lol. *now what has that got to do with anythin. it doesn't. precisely. that's just what i am wishin for. =p~
time to get a haircut to cheer myself up.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:46 PM
6:46 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
hi people!
guess why i'm here bloggin on this lovely friday morning (but not so lovely thursday night for me.) no lah. i'm not in the school library skippin tutorials neither did i pon school for the fun of it. haha. bet u can never guess. i'm sick! yes. i'm not kiddin la. hahas. =p~
last night i threw up almost 2 gallions of crap.! wonder if i'm any slimmer. haha. it must be the food i ate that day. let's see. i didn't take breakfast, lunch i had bundung potato wedges and guava. lols. and i had a snack of curry puff and cucumber at the singapore tourism board. (oh yea i forgot to update about my trip to STB.) the whole complex is air conditioned! and i was freezin to death, literally. i started to turn pale. lols. scary huh..
anyways, while doin my PW stuff at the STB library i felt a little uneasy already. i guess that was when i knew i was gonna fall ill. anyways, after comin out of the buildin, i continued to remain cold cos the weather in itself was a bit cool in the evenin. the worst part was that in the mrt i had the tendency to puke! hahas. that kinda feelin really sucks to the core. it was like on off for the whole trip. it was so bad i couldn't even speak. but i wanna thank god for protectin me and preventin me from vomitin. cos i kept prayin and prayin, hopin that i could tide over the crisis without gettin all embarrassed. =p~ and He did it. (: anyways i quickly took a cab back (the driver was so cute. not as in looks wise *hello. he was an ah pek. haha.* but his way of driving tickled me cos he constantly leaned forward to make sure the coast was clear before acceleratin.
anyways i gotta do work soon. cos i didn't touch my work for quite some time due to being tired out from squash and from yesterday's sickness. sighs.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:20 AM
8:20 AM
Monday, August 15, 2005
wanqi was absent from school today. hahas. kinda miss that girl already. hees.
girl! ur chem notes are with me yea. (:
hmm. many people skipped trainin today cos of the physics test tmr which takes up a whooping overall total score of 60 marks which is quite a figure dun u think. poor guys. study hard for the test yes. hahas.
anyways coach made us do match ups. and i got matched with eileen and atiqah. double match up due to the lack of people. after that we ran 2 rounds around the track den proceeded back to the court where he was there. ha. we had to train volleying the ball. yupp. okay so i thought heng ar. not so bad. but guess what? we did backhand volleys! wahahhas. =p~ and that aaron tan was scrutinizing our every movement, every swing of the racket. man. i kinda got irritated with him starring at us. =x he even commented on my match. zz. dun wanna talk about it. bleah. well, heard from him, himself *hahaha! =x sounds weirder den weird. wahhaha.* that he tore his leg ligament while playin squash before. hence he had to refrain from playin squash. so all u people who thinks that his voice is damn sexy can go cry over the fact that he suffered immense pain from that experience. heh.
my buddy's friend actually got blinded due to squash cos probably the ball hit his right eye, resultin in him only being able to ultilise 25% of his right eye. (only 25% of his vision is retained) ahhh. scary rite. what's the bottom line ?
squash is a dangerous sport. please take precautions when necessary. wear the -cool- squash goggles.!
hahaha.
anyways, poor fifi overstretched his leg muscle. remember that get that MC and stay home to recuperate. (and slack. of cos. =p)
after trainin was over, me and yeeteng had a mugging session! =D until about 8 den her parents sent me back home. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:37 PM
8:37 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
i find my things so disorganised!
i've never filed my study materials properly until today. filing stuff is hard work! at least now i feel motivated to study. =p
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:28 PM
10:28 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
i think im, sleep deprived.
i can barely keep my eyes open after 2am.
how in the world can people sleep at 4 and wake up at 5.30 everyday. whao. it's just amazin. =p~
anyway got lots of work to do. cyaa.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:03 PM
10:03 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
to go or not to go. that is the question.
hahas. wanna wish 2 august 10 babies, angeline n jon a happy birthday! whee.
ahh. angeline wants to go out. hmm. dunno if i should go. cos i have lots of work to clear. but like quite evil leh. no one's free to go out with her. except erica. lol. nvm. i shall call wanqi to check with her if she's goin.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:17 AM
11:17 AM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
i'm goin to my friend's place now for NDP celebrations.
hmm. today i went out with wanqi. (: we walked around orchard area down to city hall. hahas. tiring but quite fun. oh yea. we took neoprints! haha. bad hair day for me though. will get it up soon. haha. *if u guys realise i
never get down to puttin up pictures
most of the time.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 5:35 PM
5:35 PM
Monday, August 08, 2005
i've been spendin too much money these few days!! lol.
cabbed back home at least 5 times this month. this isn't good. haha.
hope it doesn't become a habit. =x
today's NDP concert was very entertainin. hahas. (:
went to tm with steph to meet fung for lunch. after that went to times.
den when i came out for awhile to throw somethin, i saw him. wahaha. okay. like so qiao.
den cabbed back to get ready for tuition.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 3:01 PM
3:01 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
I drift I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like putty in your hands
I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a rollercoaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who I am
Just take my hand and
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
I've been waiting for you
I had a dream that I
Was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid
Oh 'cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
I've been waiting
Before I met you Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought I had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:34 PM
11:34 PM
whee! the FOP was a blast yea. jump jump jump jump
jump! (:
comparable to megalife's worship sessions.
met pangker, grace, sirius head OGL matthew there. hehs.
anyways, my mum got me a new fila bag. thanks mum. =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:10 AM
12:10 AM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
hey guys.
yesterday i went for the tpjc band/CO concert at VCH. hahas. saw lots of seniors that i haven't seen in quite a while. my shifu, songyi, debb, lynn mummy, yixuan, yuezhuang and so on. including my kor! kyan! haha, yup. he's back in singapore! =D and ally, my bestest first 3 months classmate. and my buddy, ryan! hahas. still lookin gd. (: eh. i didn't see yuujin though. heh. =p~
after that me steph and socks went bonkers. lols. we went ard acting like tourists, takin pictures of anythin and everythin! haha. if steph comes online i'll ask her to send them to me. hahahs. we rawk.
now gotta go sch see teacher. haha. failed mids.
update after meetin mrs ng.
sighs. she delivers gd motivational speeches. this is the feedback i got back from her.
1. she is puzzled, why didn't i perform durin the mids.
2. i'm a model student - attentive, kind hearted and givin my friends support. LOL. shesaidthatshelikedmealot.z.
3. reason being that i might not be able to cope with 4 As.
4. have to cut down on leisure time. boo hoos.
5. she doesn't want me to drop econs as she feels that i have a mind for it but have to spend more time internalising the concepts.
6. she said that i had positive feedback from the rest of the teachers but would have to put in even more effort and seek assistance when in doubt.
okay. fyi : squash peeps. our coach was formerly a trumpet player from the band way back in secondary school till the SAF. he also got the best PT award when he was undergoin selection for NS. hurhur. so he's an all rounder yea. (:
he started squash in sec 4 cos he thought that it was unique. unlike the other racket games such as tennis and badminton! =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:53 AM
9:53 AM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
i'm now at the mjc library with wanqi. we skipped math lecture on curve sketching cos i had to submit my squash work plan. yea, i finally got down to emailing it. it was 1 day and 1 night overdue. ):
just now we had chem lecture and dr rahman flashed the results of our current test on the OHP. he even ranked the classes in order of performance and L1R5 aggregates. not only were we (S205) pit bottom of the list, we had the worst value added figure which was a negative 18. apparently many classes had gotten positive rankings. (S205 was ranked 10th in L1R5 but 28 [last] in the current test.) good news ? it was about 2 points away from second last - negative 16. depressing yes ?
hmm. initially i planned to start on some econs essay while enjoying the aircon but ended up bloggin for some reason. last night i did the integration foundation quiz and that was it. too tired to think of anythin else. i think that we need to find out
how to study smart. cos many of us are just not studying the right way, as quoted from mr naresh. hahahas. hopefully my new tuition teacher who would be arriving on saturday would be able to kindly guide me in the right way so as to quench my thrist for knowledge. -.-
ok. it's gonna be lunch.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:27 AM
11:27 AM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
just came back home. had leadership rehearsal stuff on. anyways, it was fun playin badminton squash style with my crazy captain eugene! =D
after which i went home with fabian. hahas. it's nice to have someone's company when walking home yea. makes the walk back home less tirin. really.
today was a short day. have to make it longer by completing my tutorials tonight since last night i fell asleep at 11.30 which is damn early la. hahas. ^^
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:06 PM
8:06 PM
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
hey.
i'm eatin dinner as i type this entry on the blog. it's 8.54 already! and i just came back from school. had a fun filled day at school. everythin went really well except the bio test first thing in the mornin and the chem SPA that followed that. lol. the chem SPA was really funny. i actually spilt the FA2 while pouring it into the measuring cylinder! (ahem. they were accessing
SKILL B and D today.) damn. hope the teacher didn't see that man. ):
and den i made MANY mistakes. i mean i forgot to release the water thus my initial readin started above 50cm cube.!!! twice. which means im blardy
inaccurate la! haha. most of my readings all fake out one. lol lol. i hope it isn't too far off teacher's. hahahaha. die. heard from wanqi that her SPA didn't go well also. cos the gas like evolve quite slowly as compared to the previous practicals. haha.
stayed back for squash meetin with atiqah eugene and whats his name. haha. joseph la. and den watched the national day rehearsal. spoiler sia! but nvm la. cos he's there. ^^ yay.
think he's v busy la these few days. cos there's so much to do and after the rehearsal confirm quite tired out. sighs. so poor thing. hees.
crap. i still have to finish eating my bowl of instant noodles. =/
after which i'll start on my tutorials! hahas. cyaa all. dun stress out. drink lots and lots of water. god bless! =D
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:54 PM
8:54 PM
